In the dead of night: PART 3

You promised me the night,

assuring it was only you and i.

Awestruck you leave me,

probably lost in her dreams.

I knew it wasn't meant to be forever,

but every bit of it is buried deep within.

I still wish to sit by your side,

point out at those silly stars.

And glance back with a smile,

saying..

There's me still after you...

continued...

There were no signs of him or his texts & i assumed the fact that he fell asleep or was probably lost in her dreams. The fact of him disappearing out of the blue did annoy me for sometime, but the fact that i could hint him to what i exactly feel for him made me feel more optimist about the fact that i could just let my feelings flow out more flexibly. I did complete a good chunk of assignments and so i happily surrendered myself to my beloved bed, who's been waiting for quite long.

Hours later...

I woke up with a horrible back pain, to my surprise, i was sleeping at the dinning table with my head buried deep in my assignments, all crumpled and on the verge of devastation.  I was still happy and excited about the nocturnal conversation i had with him, i wanted to feel more of that excitement by rereading the texts. Within fraction of seconds, i opened my messenger, just to get more confused and surprised, i couldn't find that conversation anywhere, i checked the whole list thoroughly for around n no. of times, i simply couldn't find his name in the list. Many thoughts occupied my mind within seconds, i was trying to relate the series of events which happened last night, but to my greatest fears, it seemed more of a dream, his text never showed up at the first place, and when i was at my extreme point of giving up, i actually felt asleep over my assignments & dreamed about the whole conversation instead of having it for real. I did feel upset about the whole fact for being a dream, but somewhere i still had this urge of confessing my feelings to him. I text him, to where was he now a days and how he's doing, hours later he texts me back saying things were going excellent on his side, we chat for quite some time, to where he makes a mention that we should meet up for lunch, it's been a long time that we haven't met in flesh and blood. I was anyways pretty excited by the fact for going for a lunch with him, all though the whole idea was of meeting him up and maybe with a group of 5-7 friends too would be joining us too, but then i was all cool with the fact, that we would be finally meeting after a pretty long time.

Me  :Well, i am super excited to meet you and the gang though, it's been a long time though.

Him :Oh well, very much indeed, we will have lots of food and gossips to keep us going though.

Me  :I am not sure about the gossips part though, but i can assure about the fact that my plate would be perfect clean and you won't find a morsel of food on it.

Him :Do you just plan to keep quite and complete all the food served out there ?

Me  :hahhahahah, absolutely not !

Numb and silence,

will be over me.

Wonder and confusion,

over your grin.

Unexplained silence,

heart burdened stories.

Is in store,

for you and me.

Him :Mind making things any simpler ?

Me  : I will narrate a story to you, mind lending a ear or two ?

Him  :Yes, for sure, go ahead !

Me  :

She said,

How about you prove them all ?

I exclaimed back,

there's no such  need !

She reinforced on her statement,

"Let them know, who you are !",

I declined back with a mild punch,

my physical strength went in vain.

Her convincing mode won.

She dragged me along,

made me accompany the hopeless love !

I cursed and cribbed throughout,

and there it commenced.

Later though,

but finally then.

There they enter,

the famous organisers.

And so did you.

I grab her hand tight,

and interrogate with highest curiosity.

Know of him ?

exclaims back in disgust.

Not of him,

but others i do.

Curiosity stabbing me,

i wonder who could you be !

Aesthetically moving and talking,

and there another soul.

Screams your name fro back,

and there me,

wishing the person the best life ahead.

My eyes kept moving,

with every fine step of yours.

Trying tremendously hard,

to make you catch a glimpse of me.

With a stone on my heart,

keeping my academics after "Le fête"

Naming myself with the other enthusiasts,

hoping to catch a glimpse of you.

Laughed backed she !

your love for food did reflected well.

Ans so it did in your choice of him,

"Half fried noodles", i blushed.

She patted back,

it won't be far.

You may grab his heart,

for your daily love.

Blushing loud, i depart,

with infinite thoughts of you.

"Creative department",

as they called of it.

But for me,

a golden chance.

*To watch your crush speaking lectures*

Every word of yours,

synced with every nod of ours.

Every statement of yours,

was our well planned execution.

Every unnoticed stares of yours,

became my ultimate thirst.

Every moment seeing you passing by me,

gave me a painful hopeless happiness.

And every second day passing,

made my friends feel,

that i have lost myself,

to the noodles unaware about me.

But for me,

it wasn't a tale of days.

But every little honest second,

the fact it's not me but her.

They said, not him, but else !

i denied with hope again.

It's gotta be him or none.

"Le fête" was an excuse,

just to see more of you.

It was a mere truth,

that "Le fête" mattered to my soul.

My only aim back then,

was not to shine bright in the group,

but just to be a mere illusion in your eye.

Things turned impossible,

attempts turned failure.

Creativity was in vain,

I could do nothing,

but show the worse of me.

They screamed again,

it's not him, but else,

Stop killing that helpless brain,

and get your soul and heart in place.

There words were total vain,

everything disappeared.

As your sight appeared,

it paralysed a little of me,

when i saw you with her.

Entangled sights,

Entangled  lives,

Entangled  love,

Entangled  hands,

Entangled  hearts,

Entangled  you and her,

Entangled  who else ?

Entangled earphones !

That little entanglement,

Reason behind your love involvement !

Culprits and enemies,

shared the same positions.

Life seemed screwed up,

more than the entangled gear !

It was more of,

nokia and samsung in love.

Life seemed creepy,

friends seemed to pretty.

I hopelessly depressed,

smiling as if it's a nightmare.

Noodles were my enemies,

earphones forever replaced with headphones.

Love stories replaced with histories,

life growing to be more lifeless.

Crying harder to unscrew academics,

loosing self in ocean of griefs.

Accepting it wasn't meant to be,

accepting it couldn't have been,

accepting it wasn't me,

accepting it can't be us.

I want go back there,

that place with million memories.

Still killing every of me,

planting a mysterious smile on me...

***THE END***

-Oindrila Pal, BeingLeha

In the dead of night: PART 2

I made up my mind,

It's tonight or never.

I will make you fall for me.

Cause you sinned long back,

by making me fall for you.

continued...

Him :Let's plan for a night out, where it's only the stars, us & your poems...

Me  :It's not a bad idea though, but let's come in terms with reality, I just really can't go for night out, got my own set of restrictions and home arrest rules, maybe we could try creating one.

Him :Well, I am not sure if we can do it practically or not, but let's leave this idea for the later execution lists.

Me  :Well, is she still over your mind ?
(& I am again back in the attacking mode, where i just wanted to kill that girl at the first meeting. )

Him :Not really, she has still occupied a major part of my mind and my heart though. I just can't stop thinking about her.

Me  :Shall i help you in erasing all the memories about her ? ( no doubt, that's something i wanted to do, it did sounded kiddish and stupid and greatly evilest, but only did my heart knew, that i couldn't dare a sight of him with another girl ever )

Him :Can you ?

Me  : Yes, maybe ! (With confidence bursting from every corner of my face )

Him :cool then, How about give it a try ?

Me  :  (And there i start again, without a second thought. )

She's all over your mind,

she's trapped in your heart.

She's got something,

which the others none.

Her smile, her lips, her eyes,

it's all of her.

And you are falling for her,

but why only you ?

Why not her for you ?

and you will be hurt brutally !

She's all unaware & ignorant !

about you falling for her grace.

Is that what you wanted ?

just to fall, to be wounded.

For her, you just a glimpse,

while you pictured her deep in heart.

Remember the entangled past ?

all the hurts and darks ?

Breathe through them,

and never fall again !

Until she's aware about you...

Him :

She knows what i feel,

My actions has spoken louder than words.

I have a heart made up of steel,

If it falls it will heal...

(Moments of awkward silence took over us, neither of us dared to speak up more, but then i really couldn't refrain myself from speaking my heart out )

Me  : (With the possible fears over my mind and the heart)

Let me go,

if it's only for her.

I am not for the night,

if she's all over your mind.

Him :

I ain't seek a body,

i have plenty of them.

You are the one who makes me feel alive,

I am no lover, nor a greedy.

Me  : (The fact that i could touch his heart in some way and could make him feel alive and better in my own little way, was the beautiful achievement at that point of time.)

I have lost my way,

i have lost my words.

Bring them back to me,

you have taken away all from me.

You made me numb,

clueless and speechless at every thought.

You made me loose every little part of me,

you just made me stare in your deepest grins.

Amusingly, you bring me back again,

with not so upsetting reality.

Your creepy smile,

flashed over my mind.

Making me realise,

the prettiest thing i ever felt...

Him :well, what did i exactly do now ?
Me  :(He sounded pretty confused and creeped out)

You touched my soul,

without really touching it.

Him :

Does it hurt ?

Me  :

Even if it hurts,

it feels good.

Every delicate touch,

it's a pleasant murder.

Mesmerising & killing,

through every veins of mines.

Every breath feels like a perfect stab,

But i simply love this crime ! 

(No doubt, i was in utter confusion, speaking out all my unexplained thoughts )

Him :Okay, then you are simply confusing me, mind making things any simpler ?

Me  : (And deep in my heart, i wanted this confusion to grow more, more creepy and tangled. )

All of my friends said,

that i should move on.

You would get another him,

he's the one, insisted me.

Seeing you with her,

bought in envies in every breaths.

They insisted i should move on,

but i always stuck to my only hope.

He's not another guy,

it's gotta be him.

Whenever i saw you,

a bizarre smile appeared over me.

Remembering those days,

i will still confess.

I envy you with her,

every unspent moment with me.

Makes me feel out of the race.

Him :I believe after this, i won't be able to sleep anymore .-.

Me  : (smiling like a evil kid on the other side, as if about to accomplish an impossible mission, taking away his sleep with my words ! )

I wish to sing you off to sleep,

but let me be honest.

I want you awake every second night,

make me feel graceful as i feel now.

Hoping this night, does not come to end,

keeps on going on, with every little inhale.

Requesting that you loose sleep over me,

but not cause of that new she !

Him :You have said a lot, now let me tell some of what i feel...

I wonder how i met you,

i wonder how i missed you,

You weren't among the crowd,

your words made me think deep,

Your words stole my sleep,

i wonder when i met you,

I wonder when i skipped you...

Me  : I am glad, that you are thinking about the fact of how did i ever go missing from your sight.

(The feeling just got more awesome, the fact that he's actually trying to figure out, why i couldn't be a part of his life at that certain phase, made the feeling more brighter)

[for quite sometime, i don't get any texts back from him, unpleasant thoughts started occupying my mind, and then i decide to switch back to serious work mode and not wait back for his texts, but then i couldn't stop myself from texting him this]

You promised me the night,

assuring it was only you and i.

Awestruck you leave me,

probably lost in her dreams.

I knew it wasn't meant to be forever,

but every bit of it is buried deep within.

I still wish to sit by your side,

point out at those silly stars.

And glance back with a smile,

saying..

There's me still after you...

-Oindrila Pal, BeingLeha.

In the dead of night: PART 1

DISCLAIMER: This is total fiction.

Assignments, Submissions and Exams season was on... Tension and anxieties were flowering from every possible tree (students). Staying awake, late nights and absolutely no sleep was the new soap at every household and hostels. Seemed more of diwali, lights on throughout the night and crackers and tensions bursting in every students mind. Parents were more worried, trying to lower down the stress levels with coffee and  boost, while students at their hostels had their parents calling up every hour to keep a check on their hardworking offspring's progress.
And there was me... all relaxed and working with a dull expression on, cursing myself for being irregular and delaying the completion of my assignments. I din't have an option then, i had to submit it the very next day. Music and food was my only encouragement for the night with my moms cup of coffee which was been served to me every hour <3 .
And all thanks to the whatsapp group of my class where people were still texting and keeping a check about the assignment progress.
Quarter to 2:00 (am) it was, i was on the verge of giving up and dozing off to a much needed break. But then my phone beeped, it was one of my favourite humans, my first crush from my previous college texted me. A sudden rush of excitement and happiness took over me. My sleep disappeared on seeing his name. Blushes and signs of joy took over my face and heart.
*The conversation*
Him : are you up ?
Me   : yes, say... ? (In  the possible formal way to hide my bouncing excitement)
Him : I am not sleepy, I guess, I am in love :/
Me   : In love ? with whom ? (I was excited and curious as hell, hoping that he falls in love with me for once !)
Him : I met someone recently.
(and me in my mind, started planning the possible murder plans which could be executed over the phone  >_< )
Me  : Oh well, interesting , so who is she, where does she hail from, how did you meet her ? (Faking with the possible happy smileys)
Him : I met her at my cousin's marriage, she's beautiful, a girl with the prettiest soul, her voice is soothing, every little thing about her is aesthetic !
Me  : Don"t you think it's way too soon to fall in love with her ? (With the creepiest thoughts over my mind, like them coming over my place to hand over the invitation for their marriage, with the cunning smile dressed over their face)
Him : Well not really, we travelled back together, and we guys got to know each other quite better !
Me  : Tell me more about her ! what is she doing ? where is she studying ? where does she stay ? (And there i bombarded him with all the possible questions, so that i could track her down as soon as possible and execute the possible murder plan)
Him : OK, stop it now you are irritating me !
Me  : oh well, it's just that, i am a bit scared, that's all. (trying to fake the whole thing with a happy smiley)
Him : But why ? I just don't understand the point here of you being scared.
Me  : ahhahahaha, It's simple, i can't stand the sight of you dating some other girl, forget sight ! I can't even stand the thought of it. I feel jealous about it, and that's simple. (Hoping that he figures out what's on my mind )
Him : Well, you aren't even dating me, then what's the problem there ?
Me  : You won't understand ! (Faking a happy smiley again)
Him : Then make me understand.
Me   : It's total vain <3 (he unknowingly switched me to the poetic mood )
Him : huuhhhh ?
Me  : 
                                                                       It's complicated,

         yet beautiful.

         Seems simple,

         but tough in every thought.

         You won't understand,

         because it's total vain.

         The pain behind it,

         is totally insane.

Him : Goodness ! You are too good with it. Well you know what....

Me   : Yes tell me. ( In the excited mode again )

Him : Oh well, chuck, let it be..

Me  :  Nooo, you had better tell it to me, You can't be doing this to me.

Him : I wish to spend this night with you.

Me  : Let's do it then (With a happy blushing smiley, happiness took over my mind and soul )

Him : Seriously ? Well, let's do it then... starry night.. tent over the hill top

Me  : And the grasshopper singing... While you are all confused and staring at me (In my best possible mood doing my assignments and texting him with a blush)

Him : How about you recite poetries and stories for me ?

Me  : All night ? (With the happy bitch dancing over my head )

Him : Yes, the whole night..

Me  : Well, in that case, you shall recite some to me as well...

Him : No, i won't be able to, i can't write well..

Me   :                                                     

                                                            You needn't be a perfectionist,

                                                                          cause tonight...

           I will live the untouched side of you,

           discover the raw beauty in you

           Appreciate with every blink of yours,

           make you feel pleasant about self.

           Make you laugh,

           every time you breathe.

           Make you feel good,

           every time you see me.

           Make you feel blessed,

           cause you are one in million.

Him : Don't do this to me ! (With the smiley of fear and threat)

Me   : Do what ? ( with the highest curiosity level possible)

Him : Your poems, I will fall in love with you, if you keep doing this to me.

Me   : (This was something which i wanted to hear for long, *to fall in love with me *, that very night dreams started to seem possible, even the difficult ones)

          I made up my mind,

          It's tonight or never.

          I will make you fall for me.

          Cause you sinned long back,

          by making me fall for you...

If i, ever realised it... (The end has no end...contd. )

And i am back again...
With the continuation of the previous tale "The end has no end"


The journey of 30 minutes ended quickly, thanks to her fab story narrating skills and my cheese burger which kept me going. After a while we got down at our respective stations and headed back home. I could spot lots of couples walking hand in hand, comparatively more than the usual days, of course anyone could spot those romantic beings walking hand in hand as it's valentines's day ! I din't wanted to go back home, maybe food could do some good to my mood. Without a second thought i headed towards the nearest pizza outlet and ordered my all time favourite and waited impatiently for my order to arrive. All i could see around me were really cute young old couples, hand in hand, staring at each other in the possible romantic gestures that they could ! And there is me, sitting all alone and staring at them with the most creepiest looks i could offer during the romantic environment flowering around me. I could spot the cute waiter heading with the love of my life, handled with utmost care and then placing it over my table with the possible graceful gesture. The curve over my face just grew more broader and without a pause i started enjoying every bite of the cheese dripping pizza. No doubt, i did feel the absence of another human sitting in front of me, but then i just figured out i could let the void (absence of my valentine) breathe for a while with the help of food. For instance, i felt things around me was just getting more confusing, numb and blurred. I was in tears, wondering what have i exactly got to cry now about ? Things seemed to be all settled and perfect, but something was still eating up my mind. I stared back at my phone, thinking if i should ring up a random soul and burst out or whether stay back all calm and relaxed and fight with the confusing situation within my brain itself. I grabbed the tissues to wipe the tears off. Moments later i was jotting down something on the very same tear soaked tissue paper....and this is how it went...

You spelled it as the end,

while it was just the start.

You paused it without a blink,

while i replayed it with a stare.

You moved on with a grin,

I stood back all helpless.

Smile gleamed over your face,

betrayals took over my brain.

Deep inside you were numb,

and my facial always lied a smile.

You caged yourself all alive,

while i let myself fly by...

I stopped writing, as my phone was ringing, mom's name was flashing. I gathered all my stuff and started back for home, with the tissue paper crumpled in my hand. If i could ever figure out, what did i wanted badly at that point of time, then things could have been more easier and simpler. I started thinking about the previous important events in my life and was trying to examine what would have been more better, but then i realized its total vain crying over the spilled milk. By the time i reached home, i successfully masked a smile over my face and started discussing about my day with my parents. In my mind i was fighting with my thoughts, if i could oy figure out that what did i really want...still fighting with all the confusion with my over occupied mind...

-Oindrila Pal, BEING LEHA

The end has no end

hello there peepz ! :)
I am back again, with another tale.
Rea's story.... where there is no end to her pain :P
ahhh...well jokes apart....According to her, there is no end...to her relationship, which ended long time ago.
She was siting in front of me, biting her nails and eying my cheese burger, which i wouldn't have shared at any cost.
I didn't wanted to share my beloved burger with her and started right away "we have approximately 20-30 minutes, temme whatever is on your mind and yes you don't get the burger. "
I  asked her "What are you waiting for ? "
She was all numb and blank, i wondered what did exactly go wrong with her. Tears rolled down her eyes. I was hoping that she would start right away, I tried convincing her, it's time that she moves on (assuming the fact, that it has got something to do with  her love life yet again). After all things really don't go the way you wish to. 
And then she started.....
"Eight months... yes beautiful adventurous eight months. I wouldn't say it was a perfect relationship, but the best till date :) for sure. It was beautiful, perfect and weird in it's on way. I do miss those days where i would nag him for every little thing be it from eating to smoking to flirting with girls. No doubt, we fought every second day, but he would never forget to make up for the fight in his own surprising way. His sleepy calls every morning, my annoying calls every afternoon and the how was your day calls every night, was our daily routine or rather the toothbrush habit which we both developed unknowingly. No doubt his past was more f****d up than mines or any other person, but still i loved him the way he was, at least he wasn't fake, or pretended things which he wasn't. He wasn't perfect though, but his imperfections was the perfect thing i have ever been in love with.
If i had to describe him ever, i would call him 'the raw perfectionist', what a beautiful contrast it is, perfections in imperfections :) . I was asked by most of them, precisely everyone, lectured for hours by the counsellors, it's time you leave him, you really don't deserve this depression which you are facing because of him, it's really doing no good to your academics or to your mental and emotional health. I just reassured myself, that it's another bad phase in the relationship and it shall be over and things will be beautiful and perfect again. But little did i knew, i really couldn't force things to work out, communication between us started to die day by day, it crossed a stage where our names weren't visible in our call logs or the messages list. Weeks later he rings me up and pronounces as the end of our relationship and all i responded with a silent yes, it wasn't a mutual decision though, but somewhere i still assumed it to be a one sided relationship and continued to assume the fact that i still belong to him. Weeks later, i decided that i should come in terms with reality, i thought i had rather move on, maybe dating another guy would solve the problem. It really din't take me that much struggle to fetch another guy, it was a casual relationship, where there was no sign of love but an absolute package of lust, which took me really quite a lot of time to realise, by the time i realised it was too late, i decided to move out of it. Without a second thought i call up my ex back, the guy who is still the love of my life, after many rings he picks up my call, there was an unusual awkward silence between us, wondering to what we should really respond back with, on hearing his voice i felt more alive and happiness started flowing through my veins and arteries, what an unusual feeling it was. I was almost in tears, he could feel me over the phone, his silence spoke tons, & then i started that how hard i tried to move on and how i ran away from the relationship of lust, how i screwed up things when he wasn't around. He absolutely din't like the fact that i was dating someone else and that made me less pure in his perspective. He still hates me for the fact that i was away with some another guy and maybe he will never accept me back. But if i had to blame someone in the end, it would be him, because of his irrational sudden decision things got worse on my side forcing me to take steps which i have shouldn't, things wouldn't have gone to the worse extent if we would have mutually talked about it.... I am still trying to get things fine and perfect like before, hoping for a miracle to happen, but everything seems to be in vain. i feel there is no end to this pain and confusion over my mind and heart. It seems the end has no end.... "

I was staring at her all confused, her smile grew more broader, she wasn't crying anymore, i felt it was way too strange, the girl who was crying 30 minutes back was smiling at me mysteriously..

And then she continues again, "But i realised its very strange and stupid of me, to go back to someone, who judges me as impure, it was because of him that i landed up in those situations which made me take wrong decisions, i din't belong to him at that point of time, he left me all helpless and fragmented. I never made an issue with his past or his previous dating scenarios, and i feel its pretty pointless that he makes an issue of something for which he's highly responsible. No doubt i am still in a dilemma, deep inside my heart i do want that guy back badly, but i guess it would be a great insult to my self-respect if i go back to the same guy who actually considered me impure... for some really irrational reasons"

It was a strange feeling though, that Rea solved her problem and answered her question without my help for the first time. It's valentines day today and i believe she realised the fact that it's time that she starts loving herself more than anyone else could do. The more she starts loving herself for who she is as a person the more she will successfully stay away from all the people who would want to mess up around with her and her happiness. No doubt there is no end to any sort of thing which is considered to have ended, in fact it's just another new chapter, another new beginning.

I gleamed a creepy smile on her, i am sure she could spot the cheese in the corner of my teeth and she laughs back and says " why do you look so serious ? Just imagine, What if the purpose of love is to get us out of relationships and not into them ? ........."

-Oindrila Pal, BEING LEHA

SURPRISE !!! :p

Well that was a joke XD 

"You love me ? I love you too !", exclaimed and reconfirmed, Rea in surprise. She was waiting for his reply, anyone could bet on the fact that her heart was beating at the cheesy rate of the cheese dripping out of the cheese nachos, oh well to be precise she was having a dramatic situation going on around her. But why ? That statement with the response sounded very well settled, but what was exactly troubling her then ?. After a long pause he responds back, "yes, i do". She again tried reconfirming, to which he responded, reassuring the fact that it isn't a lie. Only did she knew the bound of happiness, the amount of optimism took over her life, by his little reply, which actually got the curve on her face right, a beautiful unusual smile gleaming on her face in an abnormal way. She was almost in tears, tears of happiness, she pinched herself thrice just to confirm if shes breathing in reality, yes it was certainly true, her two years of wait & patience got her the right fruit, is what she thought. But Alas ! 

 As everyone knows "HISTORY REPEATS ITSELF", & it did no fail to repeat once again in Rea's case as well, for the third consecutive time though ! The call gets disconnected, she panicked, trying to call him back on his no. , her call wasn't getting connected for some really "not so important communication error, during an important life changing conversation". After sometime, the call gets connected, he answers back in a casual jokingly way, Rea found some relief after hearing his voice, but her relief disappeared in snap of seconds, when he said, "Oh well that was just a joke XD ". Rea was silent as f***, she din't murmur a word, she was numb, the phone fell down & she din't even bother to move a step, the past two similar incidents flashed in front of her eyes, just like the cinematic version of "You are been trolled again ! You silly girl !" And within nanoseconds of hearing that, she was in tears, devastated, fragmented, betrayed & possibly all the worst feelings on earth were bestowed upon her without asking !

Well, what did she really ask for ? I believe a bit of loyalty and the love she deserved.

If the same was trolled upon someone else, be it a person who is very well ignorant about it or never face the same earlier, the impact would have been comparatively less and so would be the amount of emotional trauma and damage followed by it ! It's easy as hell to troll with peoples emotions, without realizing the amount of impact would be bestowed on the victim for really no good reasons.

What if the same prank was bestowed upon the guy ? . I believe he would have given up hopes on humanity and love at the first shot of betrayal. Issues like this are very sensitive and critical, atleast for a person like Rea, who just tried to trust and believe again in the existence of love after a series of mistrusts and betrayals. 

Tiny things like this contribute in the making of a cold hearted person or players as we today know of, they are in plenty around us, things like this make an individual insecure and fill them up with the feelings of pure fear of rejections, betrayals and mistrusts. And the same set of people question the reason behind the individuals cold bloodness and point out flaws of being pretty anti-love creatures !

All i want to conclude, with this little piece of my mind, or rather on behalf of people like Rea, how about invest time in yourself, in building up a responsible individual who can actually offer the beautiful curve on other's face for lifetime and not nanoseconds ! And then you may try experimenting trolling on things which will bring a smile on everyones face, for the better !

                                                                                     - Oindrila Pal, BeingLeha